theres a wrinkly woman sitting to my left

who tries to make up for her insecurities

by laughing

all-the-time

& the constant drone of cackling

has left my ears pining for the sweet sound of nothing.

Another woman is also to my left

[if you havent guessed already this is a PTA meeting, & i'm just a student stowaway in the library]

& her child is anorexic

weighs 87 pounds [& at 5'7" that is a little too skinny for me]

& she's eyeing all the mothers

& thinking about the whole milk

and dairy creamer in their coffee

i know she wants some

but all those things are too fat for her.

they painted on their faces quite well today,

making sure the makeup was just thick enough to tell that they have secrets to hide

& it's a good thing the winter chill has frozen the concealer to their faces

because it would probably drip off

[like a melting candle]

if the month happened to be July.

its putrid really

that theres a mother sitting 10 feet away from me

who goes home

every night & tells her daughter shes

fat, fat, fat

stops her from eating

makes her sleep with a fucking corset on

to make her waist a couple inches smaller.

& an overweight mother who is silent

embarrassed by her so called 'thunder thighs'

but she's not oversized.

& they're all wearing black boots

& older women's designer jeans

they seem quite picky for for 40-something year olds

& i'm scared

because these women are suppose to be

my role models,

but they are still stuck in highschool.

<3<3<3

she's beautiful isn't she?? thats katie holmes.

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