i want to eat all those ashes you scream out

i want to kiss your winter lips

& soothe your poison tongue.

listen to me:

You Don't Deserve This

& especially not from me.

just acknowledge the fact

& my face

when i tell you

you can do better.

i am your ball & chain, boy.

don't you understand?

i will do nothing but

make you sink

<---> that much faster.

i'm the tape on your mouth

the blindfold over your eyes

the person

who is trying

to give you back the key

that unlocked your heart

[so so long ago]

but we've changed.

admit that too.

why are you looking at me

like this isn't hard?

everytime i look at you

my heart breaks that much more.

i will always adore you.

i just think

that if we stay like this

i won't do anything else but love you.

& when you leave me

it will be <---> much harder to

keep on breathing.

i will love you more than

you will ever know

but

i just..

i just want need

this time.

i'm a fragile doll

& you don't care much for china.

<3<3<3

**my planned-out-speech.

& then i took one look at his

sad, sad eyes

& it was all kisses & love from there.

oh the tangled web we weave..

oh well. maybe another day. =)

<3<3<3

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