so i met with caroline today.

we walked around & talked & had a long conversation about the enneagram I am a 9.

i know it sounds silly, but once you read about it, it becomes quite addictive.

& once you get hooked on this you realize that you have to dig through all your shit & 'old wounds' from your parents & sort all that shit out before you can move on & be healthy.

see what i realized is..i HATE conflict.

i will RUN from you if you are yelling at me or anyone else for that matter.

thats because i can remember hiding under my bed, scared, when my parents fought & threw things across the room. I mean nobody is perfect. my dad has panic attacks & is depressed & has to take sleeping pills all because his parents decided to kill themselves over his winter break.

all because my dad was the one who found them.

& so i have come to love the enneagram, and once you figure out your number, it's amazing.

its like finally there is reason behind your actions.

really.

but caroline said that i have alot of issues with conflict.

& its true. i do.

her & john got in a fight yesterday and i had to stand outside the store just because i couldn't go in.

it was too hard.

fuck.

i hate self-reflection.

my mind scares me!

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