i feel as though my whole life is on

candid camera

& i'm just waiting for someone to say

'gotcha!'

& then i will be able to return to my

real life

because i'm tired of all these

flashing bulbs & pictures

& watching myself slowly fall

as though i am looking through

a lens of a camera.

i feel like i am preforming for everyone.

i feel like my most vulnerable moments

are taken, cut & pasted together

so all anybody knows of me

is a constant loop of unhappiness.

i-dont-appreciate-life-anymore-especially-when-all-it-gave-me-was-a-shitty-hand.anyone-would-have-folded-by-now-but-nobody-recognizes-me-for-my-strengths-only-my-weaknesses-so-it-doesnt-quite-matter-that-much-anymore-now-does-it?

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