you know what?

i am TIRED of crying

& wiping my eyes

& hoping for things to change & to go back to being simple

[[because the world is just T-O-O fucking complicated]]

& all i wanted

was for you {&me}

to eat icecream forever

on a park bench

& imagine ourselves being like

every-single-old-couple

that hobbled past.

all i wanted was something forever

that wouldn't leave me

desert me

refuse me

HURT ME.

[[thats all i wanted you see. & sure thats a big wish for a little 17 year old twrlingvixen but why can't my wishes come true? let me tell you. i've wished on my fair fuckin share of shooting stars & waited for my fairy godmother & tried to drown out daddy's drinking, yelling, crying at night because he doesnt have anyone in the world anymore.

just like me.

we are paperdoll cutouts baby.

you can have the house, the car, the keys, the kids, the money, the swimming pool & your paper mercedes.]]

I-JUST-WANT-MY-HEART-BACK..if you don't mind.

<3<3<3

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