you know the body works in crazy ways.

i think i am starting to heal

although

nobody fully heals

i just move on with my life

fill the void a different way

convince myself i'm

not-so-crazy

but i know i still have alot

[& i mean a-l-o-t]

of things to work through.

i talked to a

wonderful girl last night

who seems to have almost all the

puzzle pieces put together..

but me?

i’m still scattered.

i’m still sorting out the edges

& colors

trying to see what i’ll look like

when i’ve finally been put together {again.}

you fall a lot faster

when you don’t know how far down the

bottom lies.

i’m just plain l_o_n_e_l_y.

All the time.

It cuts me like a too-sharp knife

[double sided]

so that it cuts the person who

is trying to help.

I wake up

Still grinding my teeth

Clenching my jaw

Tears running down my face.

i-am-nothing

except-a-disgrace.

<3<3<3

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